Wednesday, January 6, 2016

One Of The Worst Days Of My Life

Yesterday was heartbreaking, terrifying, bittersweet…any any other word for just plain awful.

My baby girl went to puppy heaven.

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Ginger went downhill in a matter of a week and we found out she had liver cancer this past Saturday. All her labs earlier this year came back normal. She still had a sludgy gallbladder but her levels were good and we still suspected a bit of cushings. Her weight had dropped a bit at a time but we all chalked it up to old age. I wish I had seen the signs earlier and really known what to look for but since our furbabies can’t talk I just had no clue. She still did all her favorite things which consisted of eating, swimming, sleeping and eating some more.

I just can’t believe this was last Christmas…

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I am broken without her. I just really don’t know how to function right now. Not even sure why I am typing this post….

Maybe its theraputic??

All I can hope is that she met up with my old best friend Malibu

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And all of my other fur babies I had as a child/young adult.

and maybe she will get to visit with my Great Aunt Helen who loved her so much and would always play tug of war with her. Ginger never gave up her toy. Winking smile

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I will miss her snuggles

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and my swimming buddy

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and Daddy’s fire buddy

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Brad made her the most beautiful grave right out by the fire pit. She loved to sit out there with her Daddy.

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We did all her favorite things before she passed. Sat out in the sun and let it hit her face. Ate a #cheeseburger and fries from ickdonalds even though she could only eat a little bit of it. Gave her a nice warm bath in my garden tub so she could feel like she was in the swimming pool. Put on our fire DVD while we snuggled on the floor so she could hear the crackling fire.

She was ready but I would have forever not been ready.

Please keep the prayers coming.

xoxo,

Jenny

34 comments:

  1. Sending you loads of luffs and hugs, just wish there were some magic words to say but don't nose them, just want you to nose we are thinking of you
    Loves and licky kisses
    Princess Leah xxx

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  2. THERAPEUTIC .... ABSOLUTELY fur YOU and for US, also... we are thrilled that you shared the Special things that you did for Ginger as she prepared to take her journey...
    WE are HERE and WE understand... we guess that the best thing Ginger did was decide to stay with us through one more Christmas... THAT is so Loving and SPECIAL. And we do mean that she made that DECISION.... THAT is why you did not see this coming... she CHOSE to keep it from you... until SHE was ready to go... HER WAY in HER TIME...

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  3. We are so very sad for your loss of Ginger. We have to agree with Frankie & Ernie, she made the decision about when to go and in doing so gave you a very special gift: another Christmas together. We are so glad you did all of her favorite things. I am sure it is why she had no regrets on leaving...and you shouldn't either. She will be at the Bridge waiting for you with a big smile and tons of puppy-like energy. She is your Guardian Angel now and what a great one to have!
    Oz and Gina

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  4. I am so sorry for your loss. Ginger sounds like an amazing friend and I know she will watch over you and remain with you in spirit. I have no doubt that she is with your other pets and your Great Aunt Helen. Sending lots of love and support across the miles. Run free, dear Ginger.

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  5. This post makes me cry. I know what it's like to lose a pet. No wonder how long you have them, it's never long enough. I'm so sorry for your pain. Sending lots of love and prayers your way.

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  6. Oh no......no no....we are so very sorry. Jenny bless your heart I know this was terrible for you all. We are sending you ton of hugs and kitty kisses. I'm so glad Ginger was able to feel the sun on her face. Run free sweet girl you gave love and were loved two fold.
    Hugs madi and cecilia

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  7. Jenny we put up a link to your post today on POTP....
    we are so very sorry
    Hugs madi and cecilia

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  8. Ginger had a wonderful long life and will now watch over you from Heaven. My deepest sympathy to your family. Hugs.

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  9. I saw that Madi left a POTP post and even though I did not know Ginger I wanted you to know how sorry I was for your loss. I know that sadness all too well, and I just wanted to express my sympathy to you and your family.

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  10. It is therapeutic, so happy you got to enjoy all your favourite things and have great memories. It is always sad when pets have to leave. It'll take time for the hole in your heart to heal a bit.

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  11. We are never ready to let them go. We hope the memories of the love you all shared with Ginger will bring comfort to your heart. How special to experience her favorite things one last time. sending you lots of hugs
    Mr Bailey, Hazel, Mabel & Mom

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  12. I have found blogging to be very therapeutic when facing loss. The community is so full of love and support. We are with you and thinking about you. I am feeling that bone crushing loss with you. It does get easier. I know it feels like it won't, but having been there, I know it does. Lots of hugs. Take care of yourself.

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  13. I's so sad for you - sendin big hugs.

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  14. I am so very sorry to hear this. Having been down that road less than two years ago with Barkley, I understand how much your are grieving. You and Ginger's Dad made a wonderful grave for her, and she will be watching from above, soaking up the warmth of the fire.

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  15. I am so very sorry to hear this. Having been down that road less than two years ago with Barkley, I understand how much your are grieving. You and Ginger's Dad made a wonderful grave for her, and she will be watching from above, soaking up the warmth of the fire.

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  16. We are so sorry Ginger was claimed by the bridge. It is always hard to lose one who loves so pawfectly!

    Your Pals,

    Murphy & Stanley

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  17. The love you feel from blogging will help heal your heart, you know she will always live in the most special place in your heart, it hard to say goodbye, i think it must be the hardest part of having a furchild in our lives.....hugs stella rose and momma

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  18. I am so very sorry for your loss, I hope in time you will find peace. xoxo

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  19. We've all been there. We know. Kyla had Addison's which is the opposite of Cushing's (too little vs. too much). Kyla couldn't fight melanoma successfully. We still have "Kyla moments" 54 weeks later. It is better to have known them than to not have known them at all.

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  20. The hardest part of loving our pets.....saying goodbye. I'm sorry.

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  21. Words never cover what you must be feeling. Sending love, POTP and lots of comforting hugs!

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  22. We are never ready to lose one of our furries! My heart goes out to you as you cope with the loss of your sweet Ginger. A warm hug, purrs and paw taps of comfort.

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  23. We are sad with you,,, And we know how much your heart is breaking. You gave Ginger such a wonderful life of love and happiness.. You did everything you could for her.
    Now the angels are holding Ginger,, and yes,, she is meeting all the friends who have gone before her.
    I will look for the new star in the sky,, The Ginger star...
    and when I take me trip to the moon,, I will see her playing with her friends at the Sea of Tranquility.
    Blogland is surrounding you with love.
    love
    tweedles

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  24. Our hearts are breaking right along with you....it is so, so difficult to lose our furry family members. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you all at this difficult time.

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  25. Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and prayers and for really helping me through this. I know you all understand better then most the pain that I am feeling right now. My girl was my sidekick and my best friend so it is just gonna take some time to get used to this new norm. Tilda has been staying close to me and even woke up meowing a lot last night so I think it is sinking in for her and Matt just looks sad. Usually Matt is the first to plop his big butt down in Ginger's small bed but yesterday he would just sniff it and walk away :'(

    My son has been taking the sadness in waves. Him and Ginger were only one year apart and their birthdays one day apart so that has been difficult.

    Thank you again. Ya'll are the best!!!

    xoxo,
    Jenny- Bell Fur Zoo Mama

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  26. Oh I am so terribly sorry to read this. Sending condolences.

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  27. I am so sorry for your loss. One week to say good-bye is not enough time, but then is it ever enough? Ginger was lucky to be so loved and her final resting place is beautiful. Know that we are sharing in your grief. ♥

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  28. We are so sorry about your loss. What a sweet doggie she was. Soft Pawkisses and purrayers to heal your pain <3 <3 <3

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  29. We are sorry fur yous loss. Se will live on in your heart furever. Weez sendin' purrs and purrayers.

    Luv ya'

    Dezi and Lexi

    http://dezizworld.com

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  30. So very sorry that Ginger had to leave for the Bridge. Leaving you soft purrs and gentle woofs of condolence.
    Marty and the Gang

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  31. We're so sorry about Ginger. We send you lots of purrs to help heal your hurting heart.

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  32. I am so deeply, deeply sorry. My heart is just breaking for you. I wish I could reach out and give you a huge (((hug)))) or that I lived near you to let you talk, scream, whatever. I know your pain has to be unfathomable. I am so deeply, deeply sorry. Sending love and prayers for strength for you in this most difficult time xoxoxo

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  33. I am so sorry, you are all in my prayers. Ziggy has paws crossed. My sweet Sasha crossed the bridge last June and I am sure that she was there to greet Ginger.

    Anne and Ziggy

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  34. We are so sorry you lost your sweet girl Ginger..we popped over from the POTP bloggie to send our love and hugs at this sad time..Ginger looked like a real sweety pie..so sorry for your loss..loves Fozziemum xx

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